BITTERNESS OF SOUL CANCEROUS LIKE JEALOUSY!

 FOREWORD 

When I felt the need to write on this dodgy and hard subject this morning, I took a moment and a long pause before I could commit myself. I started writing it very reluctantly and at some points, I wanted to abort the subject but, the Spirit insisted I write to finish. 

Most of the times, I really don't understand what I'm writing about till I see the finished product and then, I start to appreciate and thank God for using me as His channel. 

The message in this essay comes from a heart sanctified by God. I do not own a single letter or verb nor take any credit, because I know, it is the Spirit of God who's giving me sleepless nights as I battle with these thoughts in my dreams. 

Wow, Sydney, did you just say some Christians are suffering from the Bitterness of Soul and Jealousy? No, I didn't say it, but God did in His Word. I have, as highlighted in this essay, experienced negative forces from some closest Christians I consider to be my Brothers in the LORD. 

Lots of this hatred and negative push come from their inability to accept the fact that the Gift I operate in comes from God Above. They even believe I plagiarize other people's works. Some even tried to fight with my Gift by blocking my way to their Pulpits but God, opened a thousand avenues where these haters had no way to block my Gift as they did in "their churches". I do not care, and so, I press on with my Walk with God as it were! 

Lord, remove all the bitterness of my heart and keep my feet in the straight and the narrow path! This little note serves to confirm and affirm that, all the words, poems, essays, lamentations and narratives in this Blog, are Original and Mine: I own their Copyrights except the Music Copyrights as stated in my Disclaimer Below. 
Amen.



BITTERNESS OF SOUL CANCEROUS LIKE JEALOUSY!

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.

In my life as a Christian, I have always encountered the most despiteful believers along my way. It’s hard for me to come to terms with this unfortunate reality of living among the most bitter people on the Planet, who claim to know Christ and yet when my spirit tries to connect with theirs; it’s greeted with a bold ACCESS DENIED sign!

Well, what about the wry smiles on their faces and why do you still feel unwelcomed? In case you don’t know this, we first connect thru our hearts before we finally interact or engage in any soulful form. To my surprise, I have always found the most friendly persons outside of our Christian Fraternity and I don’t know why it’s like that: nor understand this diabolic behaviour consuming the so-called Brethren!

Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. There’s a dirty heart for every clean one out there, and there’s an impure spiteful heart for every pure and renewed one. No one can force you to change if you do not see any reason why. Your heart is you personified, and your heart knows how evil and despiteful it can get sometimes: and this is exactly what David feared most, hence this prayer!

Did you ever notice how babies kick out when a despiteful person tries to handle them? Poor baby will kick and scream so loud as if it was seeing the Devil: then their mom comes to their rescue and take their baby and, suddenly, the quiet and lull come over the bewildered baby. The sad part in this drama is that the person suffering from the bitterness of soul isn’t aware they’re the cause for this sudden trauma terrorizing the poor baby!

O’ LORD, deliver us from evil and save us from hidden bitterness of the heart. None but You LORD, can create a clean heart and renew a right spirit within our sin-soaked nature! God cannot hear a despiteful heart and a wicked spirit pretending to love God while despising their own Brethren.

Bitterness of Heart is Cancerous like Jealousy and slithers like a venomous snake on the rocks at the ready to spit its poison into the eyes of the simple. Most bitter Christians are not even aware of their bitterness since they’re always looking over them walls of self-righteousness and counting the steps of people they perceive as sinners! For all tables are full of vomit and filthiness, so that there is no place clean.

Alexander the coppersmith did me much evil: the LORD reward him according to his works: of whom be thou aware also, for he hath greatly withstood our words. At first answer no man stood with me, but all men forsook me: I pray God that it not be laid to their charge.

Apostle Paul, like ordinary Christians also suffered at the hands of the so-called fellow Believers who were full of spite and jealousy. Alexander and many others suffered from the bitterness of soul and tried hard to impede Paul from doing his duties as the Apostle. They never succeeded as the LORD delivered Paul, anyway.

Wow, Sydney, did you really write all these things by yourself: the hypocrites pretend to care when they know deep down their spiteful hearts, they are cussing with jealousy.  

Spiteful Joseph’s brothers threw him down the pit thinking, a good Joseph is a dead one! Later on, the Midianites pulled him out and sold Joseph for twenty pieces of silver to the Ishmaelites. 

Later during the hard times of the seven-year drought, God used the same Joseph to feed and deliver them from the bitterness of their souls and envious hearts!

You just can’t wrestle with a man’s gift and win, for the man is operating on the side of Heaven and God is for him! Get out of the way and let the gentleman do his thing!


Bitterness Of Soul Written By: Sydney Pikelela Gutyungwa

© 20th June 2022

Featured Title Song: Regroovable

From The Title Album: The Very Best Of Chris Botti

Smooth Jazz Artist: Chris Botti

© 2002


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