WHEN SURVIVING IS WORSE THAN DEATH!

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The greatest will and desire to live on and to survive at all cost, was instilled in our conscience by the Almighty God!

Our desire to survive is the root for hope which helps and shapes our minds to be looking forward and survive another day.

The road and ground beneath our feet may be rough and spiky; but the hope within says...keep looking at your horizon! Without this virtue no man can live another day.

Life is a conundrum and endless labyrinthine and a minefield loaded with surprises of good and bad. Walking out is daring out into the unknown. Return is never guaranteed!

When surviving is worse than death, that’s when a man or a woman sits back, contemplates all the escaped arrows of death...and finds no victory.

Sometimes, victory is less sweeter than the outcome of having survived a near death situation.

I cry tears of sadness when I watch videos of injured US Marines, coming back home as a mere torso without limbs. It’s hard to understand what that soldier is going thru after surviving death.

When surviving is worse than death. There’s no amount of motivational speaking strong enough to wipe off the tears of existential pain!

Science has created all kinds of measurements for us. We have scales and weight apparatus which can read the amount of whatever measurement we’re looking for.

When surviving is worse than death! Since time immemorial, no man or inventor was able to come up with logic tools to measure pain.

While pain may express itself through our bodies, it is far more spiritual than physical. We take pain, survive it and carry it throughout our lives.

Pain is a fixed index, the indelible prints or scars of what we went through.

When surviving is worse than death. This is when the victims have given up hope to survive another day!

Suicide is never a one step decision. It takes days, months and even years for one to eventually agree with it.

We’re all born to be free and to run around like free spirits! Depending on others for your every move is a curse!

When surviving is worse than death. It’s when a man finds it hard even to feel the sunrays landing softly on his deadened skin!

You look up and discover that your skies have disappeared and all you can see is nothing but a hollow space of nothingness.

This is the time when man finds himself alone in a dungeon of hopelessness. When he enters a point of no return, scarred and demented without hope or dreams.

When surviving is worse than death. It’s when we reach a time in our lives, where we see no rainbow, no skies and no nature to support us.

You’ve never seen what I’ve seen in life. You’ve never experienced the pain I had to go thru to survive even to this day!

Every single day of my life always hit me like it was my last day on earth. I am not quiet because I’m kind of acting like a wise man.

When surviving is worse than death. I keep my peace because I can find no one who can identify with my pain. My pain, sufferings and thoughts, are my soulmates.

And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

For now, while our feet are still rooted in this earth...pain and sorrows linger on as it were!

Believe me, you’re not alone in this....your world of pain!


Worse Than Death Written By: Sydney Pikelela Gutyungwa
© August 26th, 2023
Featured Title Song: On A Sunday Morning
From The Title Album: Second Nature
Smooth Jazz Artist: Michael Lington
2016


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