PIKELELA GUTYUNGWA MEMOIRS

  Vantage Point! If you are lucky enough to find me, just before I breathed my last and asked this question. What is the one thing in your whole life, which could be summed up as the greatest wonder you have ever experienced? What is one thing you wished God should have given you enough time to understand? I would sit up and smile at you and say, with a twinkle in my eye. Money? Nope! Love and women, not a chance! People? Not close! World travel? No one can travel the entire world! What about fame and fortune? Please, don’t give me that! Rich and wealthy people are the most insecure and unhappy individuals in this life! Time, time! O God, it is time that I want more than anything in this life! To understand and cherish the value of time more than people sweat all their lives, trying to make a name for themselves. This is the vantage point and the last throw of the dice before I leave my body. This precious vantage point of being able to allow my grandchildren on...

Sometimes I Wonder! Wondering, is very fascinating when it borders around the sweetness of life. I wonder, I wonder, like the fast-flying clouds above my head! Sometimes, I get shivers running down my spine when I think of what could have been, the greatest tragedy in my life. My eyes and emotions, sometimes; they fail to interpret what my mind is thinking. Fear and the imaginations thereof, cripple your whole body after your brain has been taken captive by uncontrollable fear. Nobody in all my life, not even my teachers: has ever told me that fear is fear no matter how narrow we try to limit it! I really do not know why sometimes, it becomes almost impossible to rid myself of the repetitive thoughts circling my head like the irritating fly. Sometimes, our thought patterns have the mind of their own. Just when you think you are commanding your surroundings, out of the blue: there comes the runaway train straight at your path! Making it through the day should be the grea...

  Back In The Day! A day is a heartbeat, a blink of an eye and a moment of whatever reminds us of and keeps us lively. A day is a single step taken forward or backwards. We walk and live in circles. Every time we find ourselves in a different landscape, we think and believe we are gone! Only to find ourselves back in the same spot where it all started. We hurry up, run, drive at a high speed, and even take off and fly away! Just to feel that adrenaline of freedom of having escaped from our demons which haunt us daily. Back In the day is nothing more than a second, a minute, an hour later or even a day to years ago. We always find comfort in everybody and everything we thought was kind and good to us. Forgetting all the nemesis which hog and invade our private space is a perpetual dream which evades us right to the grave! We do whatever it takes as opium to help us switch off our minds from our past of pain and sorrows. Somehow, this temporary suspension of our painf...