PIKELELA GUTYUNGWA MEMOIRS

  A Tossup! What are the odds of one being born into a different world, to different parents? What are the odds of being born under a different name and a different race and in another country? Would you still regard yourself the same person if God were to show you what you could have been, in another time and another world? God gives us only one chance to be born in this life. If my father and mother decided to take a break on the night I was conceived, I wouldn’t be talking to you today! I therefore put it to you that there’s nothing abstract or upsetting about abstract thinking! Life is a tossup. Heads or tails, male or female; you still win and remain the same original person. If the odds of being born into this world are one in half a billion; there’s no what if! There’s only you in this life. Yes, look into your mirror one more time. You are one of a kind! Celebrate yourself like you were dying in 24 hours. I am that I am because I am the result of the toss...

  This Boy! Like a cat, yes, a boy has nine lives too. Whatever a boy wants, he will end up getting! A boy never gives up because winning is just another day in a boy’s life. You see, boys spend their time dreaming. Always trying to find ways to discover whatever is hidden behind that forest or that mountain. Even though boys may seem like they rely on their mothers; retrospectively, boys live in a male dominated world of conquests. Come on, give us a break! We do not believe in fairies like girls. Who has time to play when only muscles and toughness are required? Hello. This Boy is a believer and believes in prayer like you have never seen. Please, hear me out. Boys have seventh sense; they believe in the most impossible and unimaginable things. Every time a boy looks up the sky, take heed; because this boy remembers everything he was taught about God. Boys lift their eyes towards Heaven and talk to God silently with their hearts bowed. Nobody understands boys li...

  Vantage Point! If you are lucky enough to find me, just before I breathed my last and asked this question. What is the one thing in your whole life, which could be summed up as the greatest wonder you have ever experienced? What is one thing you wished God should have given you enough time to understand? I would sit up and smile at you and say, with a twinkle in my eye. Money? Nope! Love and women, not a chance! People? Not close! World travel? No one can travel the entire world! What about fame and fortune? Please, don’t give me that! Rich and wealthy people are the most insecure and unhappy individuals in this life! Time, time! O God, it is time that I want more than anything in this life! To understand and cherish the value of time more than people sweat all their lives, trying to make a name for themselves. This is the vantage point and the last throw of the dice before I leave my body. This precious vantage point of being able to allow my grandchildren on...

Sometimes I Wonder! Wondering, is very fascinating when it borders around the sweetness of life. I wonder, I wonder, like the fast-flying clouds above my head! Sometimes, I get shivers running down my spine when I think of what could have been, the greatest tragedy in my life. My eyes and emotions, sometimes; they fail to interpret what my mind is thinking. Fear and the imaginations thereof, cripple your whole body after your brain has been taken captive by uncontrollable fear. Nobody in all my life, not even my teachers: has ever told me that fear is fear no matter how narrow we try to limit it! I really do not know why sometimes, it becomes almost impossible to rid myself of the repetitive thoughts circling my head like the irritating fly. Sometimes, our thought patterns have the mind of their own. Just when you think you are commanding your surroundings, out of the blue: there comes the runaway train straight at your path! Making it through the day should be the grea...

  Back In The Day! A day is a heartbeat, a blink of an eye and a moment of whatever reminds us of and keeps us lively. A day is a single step taken forward or backwards. We walk and live in circles. Every time we find ourselves in a different landscape, we think and believe we are gone! Only to find ourselves back in the same spot where it all started. We hurry up, run, drive at a high speed, and even take off and fly away! Just to feel that adrenaline of freedom of having escaped from our demons which haunt us daily. Back In the day is nothing more than a second, a minute, an hour later or even a day to years ago. We always find comfort in everybody and everything we thought was kind and good to us. Forgetting all the nemesis which hog and invade our private space is a perpetual dream which evades us right to the grave! We do whatever it takes as opium to help us switch off our minds from our past of pain and sorrows. Somehow, this temporary suspension of our painf...