SOMETIMES I WONDER!
Sometimes I Wonder!
Wondering, is very
fascinating when it borders around the sweetness of life. I wonder, I wonder,
like the fast-flying clouds above my head!
Sometimes, I get shivers running down my spine when I think of what
could have been, the greatest tragedy in my life.
My eyes and emotions,
sometimes; they fail to interpret what my mind is thinking.
Fear and the imaginations thereof, cripple your whole body after
your brain has been taken captive by uncontrollable fear.
Nobody in all my life,
not even my teachers: has ever told me that fear is fear no matter how narrow
we try to limit it!
I really do not know why sometimes, it becomes almost impossible to
rid myself of the repetitive thoughts circling my head like the irritating fly.
Sometimes, our thought
patterns have the mind of their own. Just when you think you are commanding
your surroundings, out of the blue: there comes the runaway train straight at
your path!
Making it through the day should be the greatest to everyone who
survived the day, count it victorious no matter how many times you have
tripped.
Remember that when we
were babies, the only way to learning to walk; was through falling. Determination
comes as easy as breathing in and out from way back then.
Sometimes I wonder why, like all people of flesh and blood; I feel
like quitting when things do not work my way. Life outcomes always work out
like mathematic rules.
Addition has its own
way, depending on the circumstances. Subtraction pivots back in a bitter
sweeter way and leaves us wondering if it was worth all the pain.
Multiplication takes its course and disappears like water in our
hands; when we exceed the need for everything we craved for.
Division is almost
guaranteed to devastate our life and stability, thus sends us tumbling down from
the mountain top to the valley below.
The rest is the total of all our frustrations, jumbled out into
unrecognisable painful fragments; reminding us of what could have been had we
exercised a little patience.
We find the pieces of
our lives all scrambled into the bitterness of soul and the rottenness’ of
bones!
Sometimes I wonder. If I could be able to slow down the velocity of
my world, thus buy myself more time to gather new strength: and arm myself for
all the difficulties experienced through the sandstorms of life.
Why I sometimes, find
all the witnesses surrounding me on each passing day; not very convincing? The
mirror, my shadows, my sight, and my hearing are all in agreement about my
position except me, myself and I.
Delay, deny and dismiss; become the modus operand of my life, every
time I argue with the reality staring my face. If dreams were crutches, I would
have no excuse for all the failures due by me in my life.
Sometimes I wonder, if
there are still people in this world who can still notice that I am still around
and kicking; right there next to them?
Walking alone inside my shadow and minding my business, is the
choice I made long ago. Many people puff and sweat, trying to find excitement
in the company of snobbish individuals who don’t give a rat about their
wellbeing!
Sometimes I wonder if
there will ever come a day, when one goes to bed feeling 200% happy and
fulfilled.
Yes, and yes again!
Sometimes, it is always
a good thing for one to take care of oneself before everybody else! This
remains my priority since the day I was born!
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